When I was in the Gakkai, I was always spaced out, rarely focused [except on Gakkai activities]. Rather than taking care of family, career, and my own spiritual development, I was taking care of the SGI. I lost many things, keys, money, checks, jobs, apartments, certificates and even when I would gain something I would quickly lose it. I can't remember one important thing I lost since leaving the Gakkai. I continue to chant but with a different worldview.