"I realized that the lie is the first commandment of SGI members against non-practicing partners."

"I was then beginning to resign myself to living with a zombie, accepting her choice and still trying to see the positive in all this."

Conclusion.... "I realized that the lie is the first commandment of SGI members against non-practicing partners."

In comments Victims of the Soka Gakkai [in Italian]:

https://vittimesokagakkai.wordpress.com/2012/02/02/vittime-soka-gakkai-esperienze-quando-un-coniuge-convivente-parente-entrano-in-soka-gakkai/#comments