" for so many reasons i am messed up from growing up in this lie [SGI]..

"was born into Sgi, a "fortune baby" so called.

both parents leaders..

very disillusioned..

narcissism saturates the whole damn thing..

people i know practice 40 years.. pioneer members.. show no real growth.. backbiting and power struggles a plenty...

so much to say about the many things going on in the world.. discussions that should be occurring, conspicuous in their absence.. discussion meetings that seem to discuss nothing..

growing up, any time i needed help, i was told "chant about it"

never any real help or advice..

for so many reasons i am messed up from growing up in this lie..

i am surrounded."