Short experience of gain and loss

When I was in the Gakkai, I was always spaced out, rarely focused [except on Gakkai activities]. Rather than taking care of family, career, and my own spiritual development, I was taking care of the SGI. I lost many things, keys, money, checks, jobs, apartments, certificates and even when I would gain something, I would quickly lose it. After leaving the Soka Gakkai and since I began chanting  Namu Myoho Renge Kyo (rather than Nam Myoho Renge kyo),  I can't remember one important thing I lost and when something is gained, it remains for a long time.