Thanks Meg. Fragments of those lost posts live on in my mind as well. Originally. it took me weeks to read through the enormous amount of posts before I eventually made my first post. What really bugs me the most is the loss of ALL the posts I made, mostly because I had planned to use them as a reference. Many of my posts were the manifistation of so many forgotten SGIcult experiences that had been triggered by reading about other people's almost identical experiences. I had intended to use those triggered memory posts as a recall aide to help me someday organize and finish my dormant book project, "Cult of the Master".
The incalculable hours and hours of pouring my soul into intensive meticulous writing and proofreading never came easily to me. I'm a very slow writer - so putting up a single post often took hours of effort for me to compose. (I wish I could churn out my opinions as quickly and efficiently as our friend Taiten can - she's an amazingly insightful and prolific writer.) I would have made backups of all those posts, but I erroneously believed that they were safe and sound, and that access would always be available in the future, so I didn't bother. Now I regret having trusted this forum to retain and safeguard the blood sweat and tears I poured into writing those lost posts. But as you pointed out, the effects of reading and writing them still live on within my being. I have always been grateful for the existence of this forum, as I have clearly stated on many, many occasions.
The most important reason for this forum still exists - to help those that are going through, or that have been through the SGI cult meatgrinder. I hope that a rebirth of activity will soon grace us here. I pledge to remain here and join together with my kindred spirits in an effort to continue the important work and tradition that need to be carried on in order to provide support and assistance to all those past, prestent, and future ex-cult members that will require our help. I have already made it my mission to help enable SGIcult victims to understand, counteract, and find closure to the negative effects of their cult experiences.
Tommorow is the Winter Soltice. I will celebrate the return of our rejuvenated Sun to a higher position in the sky and the rebirth of life, as I refect upon and resolve to enjoy life to the fullest. Best wishes to all as the wheel of life turns yet again.
Spartacus
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